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lost the touch with my powers
« on: June 10, 2010, 12:33:07 am »
Hi

I don't know if you remember my post in which got concluded that I had a demon attached to some parts in and on my body?
Via via I got advice from an ex-member who knows a lot about the subject and he told me I had to get rid of it. So I did.
2 problems though.
The demon, or parasite as he called it, is dead, that much is sure, but some parts of it are still attached to those anchorpoints and I can't seem to rid myself from those.
I think this has to do with the other problem: since I got rid of it, I felt a huge emptiness inside me, and at first I felt my energies (chakra and aura) going beserk and being all chaos... but shortly after I couldn't even sense my chakra and aura anymore...
I've been told that I have somehow, after ridding me of that parasite, shielded myself from the outside world with some sort of barrier, she told me it's the result of having been realized I was in danger, call it a lockdown. But I've tried so much to connect to myself again, I've meditated for hours, but I can't even feel my root chakra anymore, whereas before I could open it at will without meditation.
Now, I do think if I give it time things will restore to normal, but I don't really feel like waiting, because it doesn't feel right, like I'm wasting time.
What I want to ask is the following: Is there a way for me to get back in touch with my chakra and aura so I can continue my training and rid myself of the parasite leftovers and making me break that barrier myself?
Or can't I do it because there are still some parts of that parasite left inside me? If so: how do I get rid of those parts, because I ripped him out with my hands but now I can't grab it anymore.
Feel free to speculate on what could work, if I deem it safe enough to try I will try (so NDE is out of the question).

Thx in advance btw^^
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Re: lost the touch with my powers
« Reply #1 on: June 10, 2010, 11:28:54 am »
Well I would be cautious because if you feel like a part of you is missing and you still have the limbs of the parasite attached to you. There is a chance that would be enough for regeneration of your parasite. I would keep this in mind. The limbs need to be removed expertly and carefully to avoid this risk. They are messing with the flow of your energy just being there. (like a giant log sitting in a river) The energy has to move around it.

I will comment again when I receive other input on what should be done.
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Re: lost the touch with my powers
« Reply #2 on: July 04, 2010, 01:12:12 am »
ive had a similiar experience after i was posessed many native americans would call it a lost or broken sould as some voodooists would say somethings wrong with your head. this is to say that after such spiritual trauma you lose some of your composure and spiritual essence you merely need to retreive it or regenerate (irecommend retreval) you can accomplish this by walking the astral plane spirit questing or intense meditation trust me its worth the time and the effort you dont want your powers ot start getting out of hand or even worse being controlled purely subconsciously i also advise some purification of yourself and surroundings pm me for more information :)
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