Ok, tnx, I think Im maybe too old..... 

No you're not. No one would paint their hair four different kind of colors, do piercings, wear ripped jeans and a Care Bear t-shirt and hold hands with everyone around a mall. Or at least that's what emos do (at least the emos in my town show off alot like this) Personally, no offense but being emo is a very immature thing.
The only lifestlye I've had before being Goth was grunge and it didn't suit me afterwords. Grunge is... think of Mudhoney or Nirvana with Kurt Cobain.

Hello, did anyone miss me?


Winged Shadows

The ravens fly and glide to thee
One for you and one for me
Here the ravens caw with glee
Together in a gloomy tree
They live, they are born and they die
They die, they live and they are born
Then they like us they fly and they die
They die then they fly and are torn
Where the crows are happy
Together in a gloomy tree..

Velvet birds in the tree's shade
Black is what the birds are made
Winged shadows dark as night
They fly and they glide today, tonight
Velvet birds in the tree's shade
They die, they fly and then they fade
Here the ravens caw with glee
Together in a gloomy tree

The crows fly and glide to you
One for some and others too
Here the ravens caw with glee
Together in a gloomy tree
Here they die and fly again
Take a shape and grow again
Flap their wings, lighten soul
On the shoulder of a scarecrow
Winged shadows free at last
Live a life that goes so fast
Winged omens finally free
From all war and blasphemy...
The crows fly and glide to thee,
One for you and one for me
Here the ravens caw with glee
Together in a gloomy tree.


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Alluringly

There once was a boy that stared at me with dread
He asked me what was I doing and to him I said:
"I scream in silence, I sing of Strife
I live for Death, I die for Life."

He saw a crown of thorns upon my head
Then questioned me who I was and I said:
"I'm the dream that won't come true
I'm the star that has fade
I'm the person that was you
I'm the mistake 'God' has made
I'm the damage of the curse
I'm you when you were me
I'm the worse of the worse
I'm what wasn't meant to be."

He reluctantly came closer, more near,
As he trembled with fear, I purred in his ear:
"Lovebites and bloodstains, it's always in vain,
Eternal love, eternal pain, written in my veins."

He touched my ghostly skin, he thought I was dead,
He asked what happened to me and I said:
"I have lived a thousand lives
I have died a thousand times
Forever I grieve and wail
I have never failed to fail."

He wanted to flee but he stayed with me instead
Held me in his arms and in a whisper he said:
"Take my heart and paint it black
Let's walk if you can no more fly
Just don't leave me my angel
Wait a minute, please don't die."

With a mere glance he knew I wanted to go
Sick with rage, I was trap inside my soul
The celestial neon lights glowed red
I flapped my broken wings and I said:

Solitude
Illusion
Coldness
Kaos

Anger
Nightmare
Gore
Empathy
Lust

               Yes.
                 I caused all of them...
      Sweet poisons that blossom in my lips.

WARNING: Violence drives violence, aggression is not a way to solve your problems.
If someone makes you feel down, talk about it. If it's an intention to harm you, don't be dumb like me, get help.



A Friendship Sinks

      The urge
The desire for revenge         (hell)
   Everything
         You took away      (you lady)
      From      me.
   Everything you've done to me
         hurts
      in       my          heart.
Why do you hurt me?            (*laughs*)
      What did I do to you?
   Everything you've done... to me.
      Makes   me     sad.
      Hurts     me     inside, you can't see it
      I won't show it to you. (my wounds)
                                                         Inside

   ...

The desire LUST
A need
   For revenge      of      my
           pain
   It
      consumes
         me
   Inside
   It destroys me, in the inside,
      Slowly, painfully
At the same time I regret         (you liar)
         No control
My mind
   In my mind I see your face
      Visualize it
     B    B    B
       R  R  R
B   R   O   K  E  N
        K K  K
      E   E    E
    N     N     N

      Broken like my heart.
      Like a stone thrown at a window.
      Broken like glass.
      
   I close my eyes and I see (wish)
your face was
      Ripped
      Slashed
      Torn
      Just like the sails of our friendship
         Thinking about it makes me
            Sick. With. Rage.

[Moloch]

.

Oh my! Our sick little angel has grown up and come into her own. I am so proud of you!

 
lol Oh stop it Moloch you're scaring me  Your sounding like Auntie before she pitches my cheeks. *falls off chair laughing* lol I'm just joking, on the other hand I'm glad that I've haven't lost my touch, it's much more rewarding than self-afflicted injuries. Heck, everyone is good at SOMETHING. 

Warning! Warning! Rated R - for the simplicity of being hardcore
Sit back, relax and enjoy the show.

~S. A.

Graceful

HELP ME I'M HAVING A NIGHTMARE AND I CAN'T WAKE UP
ALL MY ILLUSIONS HAVE COME AND THEY HAVE COME TO STAY
HERE! IN MY HEART IS THE AGONY OF A THOUSAND LIVES
OWNERS OF THE SCREAMS IN MY HEAD, THEY WON'T GO AWAY

See me, feel me, save me, kill me,
Choke me, hang me, ... set me free

I am dirty and I'm so clean
I'm everyone and nobody
Come on, follow me, worship me,
Fight me, love me, fear me, use me
I'm feeding off of my own blood
Oh yes, I'm my own enemy

Blind me, find me, and hide me again
There is no need of mercy
Peel me, skin me, pin me, grain me
It's only myself against the world
Tear me, humiliate me, bless me
I'm no voodoo doll, I'm just a girl

Amaze me - this is your only chance
Curse me, honey, leave me in a trance
There is nothing like a hell called home
Another open heaven free to roam
So eat me, drink me, chew me and spit me
Throw me if you really want to see -
- If I am going to fall or fly
Call me, fend me, free me please lock me
Dress me, wet me, hang me out to dry

I watch you grin as I shriek maniacally
As I moan repeatedly "kill me, kill me"
Take my insides and tie them in a knot
Go on, carry them around until they rot
Tear my skin and place my guts on the floor
Start your chainsaw, chase me out the door
Until it finally drives me crazy
Until I can't take it anymore
No, this isn't enough, baby
No, I guess I still want more.

Slay me, play me, bury me alive
Like me, hate me, let me survive
Rule me, free me, bind me in chain
Sell me, know me, we are insane
Finish me, start me and do me again
Freeze me, burn me, and do it again
Please gift me, scare me, come with me
Screw me, buy me, stay away from me
Smash me, slash me, take me there
Scratch me, nail me, I don't care
Break me, take me, hear my plead
Cut me, stab me, make me bleed
Hug me, hurt me, it's my right
Drain me, stain me, paint me white
Rip me,rape me, paint me black
Steal me, wake me, bring me back.

I watch you grin as you break my wings
As you break me
In a way it seems so monstrous...
Yet so gracefully.

[Moloch]

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... just a thought 

your words could sound really cool if you would do it with music



shoot me but when I was reading it it was like a song... with music and everything

It's amazing, isn't it? You sense the music there too? I guess I'm an average song-writer, one that writes songs that will never be played, unless if someone is willing to suggest that it would sound awfully good played by Cradle of Filth. I guess I have the right to daydream...

Any great achievement was a daydream at first 

"Ce monde n'est qu'une vallee de larmes."

   Walk In The Rain

It starts in the winter of a cold November
The winds played with my hair, an omen against the sky
And without knowing why, I suddenly began to cry
Pondering about events that made me want to die
Then some happened that seemed more stranger
In the graveyard I met a boy so cute and clever
And through the conversation I actually felt shy
"It's my grandmother," he said, "I miss her,
this on is her tomb, I came to say goodbye."
Not knowing how or why, we were together
Darkness fused with light, an omen against the sky.

Now I remember when my boyfriend began to wonder
There was one something he still had to discover
Once he unburied the truth he wished was a lie:
"I still worship the Reaper", what he had to deny
Like an omen against the sky, he left me with no trace
And like an omen left me only nothingness to embrace.

To think we could've be free, it seems so crazy,
As we are one, together, as the time passes by
We make forever last a second, you and I
And a second last forever, in my memory
In a moment too soon I gazed at the moon
The Moon in the middle of the nocturne sky
Right there like an omen against th sky
Oh the infernal sky, the color of your lie
In your infernal eyes I drown myself forever
To walk in the rain for as long as I remember
In the ashes I lie, I'm hugged by the pain
Hugged by the winter, an omen against the sky

As I walk in the rain... I begin to remember
When we met, we had to start in the never
Then it all ends, w say goodbye forever
Leaving the fire's ember as I walk in the rain.

Something Wicked

Once upon a time I heard something strange
Footsteps in the darkness, someone following me
Hidden in hideouts near, I went mute with fear
Of a certain someone, something, trembling with rage
There is no escape, not even a chance to flee
The shadows of my shadow had come for me

They said: "Dark be soul and heart like stone
Cold be thy sleep upon the anceit bones
The light to thyself must fade,"they told me
What its significance was a quiant mystery
When clocks ranged midnight I ran out of sight
Running away from THEM, away from the fight
Away from the treachery they brought to me
To me that they shared their essence and schemes
Invaded my mind and they had quieted my screams
They said in the black wind the silence shall cry
Like graves in the graveyard under the starry sky
'Till the Lord was yet to fall, "So Mote it be"
The shadows of my shadow wouldn't set me free

Black candles, an altar, a mouth-stitched frog
A dagger, a prayer, and I'm chanting in the fog
For the protecting circle you see, three times three
But also for self-destruction in this ceremony
A pinned doll, a skull, graveyard dirt at my door
They heard my plead and answered my call
For once and for all, they caused my downfall
The shadows of my shadow haunted me ever more

As one illusion sets another shall arise
Of flashing moments I live to despise
To stop and wish for another day new
I carried the burden waiting for you.
In a garden of dreams everything went gray
The shadows of my shadow've came to stay
All I see is small infant bats now lay dead
I waited and dead goats go there instead.

A long time ago when my hopes ran low
Low, low as much as you think it's so
With 'e madness that took place, my face went pale
Trap I was in a Salem's fairy tale
Sweating cold, snarling, twisting where I lied
I drowned in the blood of my wounded soul
As I fought and I cried, against an omen defied
The shadows of my shadow wouldn't let me go.

Desperate in run I tripped pathetically
Ridiculously
They pointed and cackled at my fall
I couldn't see them but I felt them there
Transfixed they gazed down at me endlessly
Their white pupil-less eyes seem to stare
The towering figures, they surrounded me
The towering shadows gazing down at me
There was no pity in their gaze.





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[Kadesh]

 My oh my... what talent you have my dear!