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Title: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Skyenique on November 10, 2011, 01:01:53 AM
I actually stumbled upon this group accidentally, and thought why not give it a try?
Its sort of my last attempt since I'm sort of at my wits end.
I have Extreme nightmares, not here and there- but almost every night.
Starting at the age of around 5 I woke up next to my mother and saw a large slightly glowing but see through figure of an old man. He was covered in a large old cloak and held a "Sythe" like weapon, another flying creature that was very bright floated by his shoulder. This lasted a good 20 or so minutes, I kept looking, then hiding, looking..hiding.. He never went away and just stared. I suffer from sleep paralysis and Doctors seem to think thats when hallucinations started, but it was very different from any paralysis or sleep walking hallucinations I've had.

I would say around sometime that same age I started having nightmares- at first they were more clowns chasing people, chopping them up but then they dulled and came back later at the age of 11ish and were severe. They would usually be of dead people, murdering, apocalyptic sort of dreams. One where a little girl was very angry with me and even would yell at me to kill myself, and they got worse from there. I'm now 18 and constantly have dreams of vampires, war, the beginning/end of human kind, the end of the world, zombies, alien like creatures, werwolves viruses spreading ending the human race, finding family members mutilated, watching people being tortured, having to kill others to survive, finding my pets mutilated, but I would say most common is a "End of the world" theme in which I have to survive.

I've been to many psychiatrists, doctors, no one really knows what is wrong with me since besides being attacked a few times by brother in which has mental issues (In which I was able to stand because he has a disease and this didn't effect me much and we get along now that he is able to control himself) Nothing negative has really happened to me at that age to cause such graphic dreams.  I'm adopted, and know little of family history or health records but for the most part there seems to be not much wrong with me. I've been dealing with this for 13 years, and I can hardly stand it. Some don't bother me, but by morning I feel so fatigued I can hardly stand it. I recently had an MRI and have a feeling like everything else of mine.. nothing physically wrong.

Can anyone help me as to what MAY be going on?
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: ravinclaw on November 10, 2011, 08:29:18 AM
The subconcious is a strange thing. We go around all our lives recording data so to speak and then bits and pieces are played back in dreems along with imagination, thoughts, hopes, fears.

I saw some things when I was a child and the few people I told tryed to convince me it was imagination or a dream, but I still dont buy it. The things you saw in your room may have been imagined or some real manifestation of something or another. In many cases we cant truley see certain things with the eye, so something in the mind will fill in the blanks. But the good news is I dont think the reaper himself payed you a visit as you are still amoung the living. 
 
But when it comes to dreams or any other aspect of the unknown, it seems to me understanding is the best way to kill fear. Dreams are full of symbolism. Something like death can reprosent life, or a new begining, even closure. Perhaps the end of the world dreams are really about a desire for a new begining. Maybe on a very large scale.

Welcome to Monstrous.
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Nina on November 10, 2011, 08:55:59 AM
Welcome to Monstrous Skyenique! Enjoy your stay :)

And I agree with Ravin on this one, mostly.
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: TeteoInan on November 10, 2011, 09:12:57 AM
I feel that Ravin's got you on the right path Skye.
I can do some dream interpretation for you, if you'd like... just PM me.
Otherwise, Welcome to Monstrous.  :-)
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Skyenique on November 10, 2011, 12:49:03 PM
Thanks (: even dream interpretations help from other people's views- I have loads of books I try to use but it rather confuses me because why would I want to "Start a new life" at the age of 5? I've heard that quite a few times, with a few other dream interpretations which I really didn't feel fit how I felt at that age. So to get other people's views would be really nice... I'm really rather tired of hearing "Sorry I can't help you" From the obvious people who are suppose to be trained in these fields. And after medical, psychological, I'm really just exhausted on every level after 13 years of this! The only thing I could find similar is Chronic Nightmare Syndrome with graphic vivid nightmares which people describe it as "Eventually being able to control" which I have yet tried those ridiculous techniques which got me no where.

And thanks Nina and Ravinclaw I hope I can get some answers with you guys, since most of you seem very knowledgable than any "I don't know" Doctors I run into (:
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: ravinclaw on November 11, 2011, 07:12:55 AM
Well, you are very welcome. We dont always  have all the answers, but I can say without a doubt we are usualy willing to help in any way we can. If nothing else you have found a group of people who fully understand that not everything can be explained my modern science.

At the age of five, the mind isnt quiet as complicated as it is later on, but the subconcious dose strange things even at an early age. Maybe like a built in switch of some kind to avoid an overload....

An adoption is a pretty big thing to go through.... thats just one thing to look at as far as the state of mind you may have been in at the time.... could go along with the new begining or even the closure, but that wouldnt explain why you continued to have the dreams.

The next thing Im going to mention is kinda out of left field in a way, but ..... Do you have a general fealing that there are simply things wrong with the world or many of the people in it? Something that should be made right?   

(yes Im going somewhere with this depending on your answer)
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Skyenique on November 11, 2011, 05:50:18 PM
I suppose but sometimes answers can be found in the oddest places, from the most random people.
I just saw you guys had information on dreams, and I figured why not? I got my MRI  back and as I thought, 100% normal. So that crosses out anything physical and really breaks it down to mental.
Actually, I was adopted as a baby (12 hours old) so nothing around that ever made me confused, I never really cared that I was adopted or was curious about my parents until recently. Otherwise I would Definitely blame that on the nightmares, would make complete sense.

I would have to say yes, I always did have my obvious dislikes on people whether I knew them or not. I always thought the world and the people in it were off. Some people were okay, a lot were fake, a lot couldn't be trusted and seemed to put on a mask to everybody or would look down on others even if they didn't say or do things they just  gave off this enormous vibe, even the nicest people could have brutally murdered another person. But of course I did have my friends, I was pretty happy and social as a young girl but I would say I was more aware of things.  When you grow up as a girl though, elementary school and middle school can be pretty challenging, girls go nuts like a freak show- if you're different in any way it suddenly becomes Bad so MOST girls I didn't like, simply because they were mean in a immature way. With age I got more aware of things and at an all time extreme would say yes, this world and the people in it are so off I can hardly stand it. Can't dance around that question.
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Nina on November 12, 2011, 04:24:57 AM
Sky, could you please change your postings font and color, with dark background its very hard to read it, and I doubt people will feel like highlighting them every time. Thank you ;)
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Skyenique on November 12, 2011, 06:04:39 PM
Oh weird! It must show up very different on my screen, its a dark background with a medium shade of font that seems to show up really well (must be my settings) but I'll be sure to change it thanks (:
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Nina on November 12, 2011, 10:27:28 PM
No problem, thank you :)
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: ravinclaw on November 14, 2011, 06:36:49 AM
Maybe your just f*cked up like the rest of us.  :-D

Im kidding, just because your having dreams like that dosnt meen theres anything wrong with you, maybe its just that you see things wrong around you.   
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Skyenique on November 14, 2011, 09:04:32 PM
Eh, being skrewed up is better than being normal I suppose.
At least I have a few good stories spilling out my noggin. ._.
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Nina on November 14, 2011, 11:05:00 PM
Maybe your just f*cked up like the rest of us.  :-D


Erm, well, thanks mate. I guess. lol
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: ravinclaw on November 15, 2011, 05:35:57 AM
Normal is over rated anyway. If most of the people I meet on a day to day basis are normal, Id rather be f*cked up  :-D  .......in more ways than one maybe,..... we need a smiley smokin a little joint  :-P
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Nina on November 15, 2011, 07:29:46 AM
Yes we do. And a beer drinking one. And ironing clothes one. And back to topic one. And Dean and Sam Winchester one for all the demon hunter wannabeez....

 :evil:
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Skyenique on November 18, 2011, 10:59:29 PM
Haha true (: Running into plain people gets awfully old.

I'm having an MRA soon to narrow down things, but the doctor (finally one who can help) Thinks its a Neurotransmitter issue and the fact that I never wall into deep sleep has added lot of stress which doesn't help.
If it doesn't, guess I'm stuck with them.
Title: Re: Graphic nightmares constantly
Post by: Angelus on November 19, 2011, 02:52:04 AM
Welcome to Monstrous. Have you considered starting a dream diary? Here is the "dreaming" section of the site. http://www.monstrous.com/forum/index.php?board=64.0 (http://www.monstrous.com/forum/index.php?board=64.0)

Run a day to day diary. It will allow people to discuss each individual dream with you.