At precisely what point does dedication become compulsion if not full blown OCD?...
Is it the adrenalin rush associated with wandering through a cemetery alone in the wee hours of the night, the need to escape the mundane banality of everyday life that only the reckless abandon of extreme sports, roller coasters or an enlisted tour of Afghanistan could rival but practicality negates?..I had to ask myself this question as I stopped on the side of the road at 4:15 am to wipe the condensation from my windshield that the billowing steam from a slopping, overfilled cup of coffee obscured...then after a gear grinding and somewhat oafish disregard for cold weather engine protocols rendered my transmission stuck between gears
with an audible “clunk”, I was forced to pull over a second time before even reaching the main thoroughfare...A life of lifting weights has assured me that brute force is always a viable solution as I strong armed the lever in the center console into the appropriate slot thus nudging my poor, ageing ( but beloved) Jeep into part time 4X4 in order to extricate myself from the previous days wet snow turned overnight ice mold ...the indignation I was feeling at this slight delay was quickly replaced with remorse as the added traction and now fully awakened motorized monstrosity effortlessly traversed the ice packed pavement ...
I visualized the transfer case gears breaking into pieces and ricocheting about thethe housing as the result of my primal impatience, but this moment of reticent clarity
will unlikely circumvent a repeat performance on a near future, cranky, pre coffee,cold morning ...The decision to make these early AM excursions are often
impulsive but with conviction ...Obviously there are certain mitigating factors that influence the target location but this one seemed predestined and completely logical ...at least that is what I kept telling myself as I groggily ambled out into the cold morning air with thermos in tow...
I remember a time in unincorporated Cook County that bars would stay open to 4am and I would generally be making my way home at this hour back then, odd how the subtle things like pre dawn serenity and quietude completely escaped notice in those days ...
St John cemetery is another registered historic landmark and is not too far from some of my previous exploits as The Country House is only a couple miles due north on the same street and
the C. H .Cemetery ( site of the infamous “Paranormal Polka”thread ) lies due southwest a mile or two...Those not as energy conservation conscious as others were kind enough to leave their holiday lighting powered up overnight on Clarendon Hills Road created a sort of multi color lined landing strip...a landing strip that strangely terminated at the corner where the old cemetery lies leaving only the unusual circular red lights flashing on a low visibility stop sign and the amber/orange glow of the corner streetlight as the sole source of illumination...As I parked the
Jeep and glimpsed over the fence to the burial grounds beyond, the clean white dusting of snow that swirled with the sudden gusts of wind further confounded the peripheral glimpses of movement the brush abundant property later provided ...
Founded in 1856 this is another point of historic interest as in the case of many of my repeat sites ...there is little in the way of archival data online regarding this location, the genealogical lineage of the of those interred or their contributions as township founders...and short of a call to the parent church now located miles away or a clerical stint at the local library, there is not much knowledge to be gleaned via mouse clicks from home ..I did manage to locate a comprehensive list of those buried there including birth and death dates (*below) but little else...I often feel compelled to connect with those that have been long forgotten and have little to remind us of their existence
aside from these stoic stone markers and whatever trace elements remain below...The inset pictures that are so prevalent at Resurrection and Mt Carmel often provide that connection when written
records are absent ...by comparison so few are fortunate enough to enjoy a legacy of historic notoriety, reverent relatives or at least inclusion in an archival list of a names and dates online when considering the probable billions of our predecessors that were simply commemorated with a pile of rocks, two sticks tied together as a makeshift cross if anything at all or worse; vulture chow but I digress ...
These night photo sessions are often the making for interesting photographic subjects albeit the fact that they make it extremely difficult to analyze for potential paranormal anomalies... I make it a policy of utilizing a combination of flash /no flash, high exposure/high ISO settings thus creating variety of different textures to some of the images that may seem cool but at the same time complicates the screening process...of course considering that I am not motivated by providing proof of the spirit world to those that are under the misconception that strict adherence to TV ghostbuster protocols are obligatory by all that choose to participate in the “paranormal community,
this is a moot point ..Ido feel there is room for both edicts but I personally prescribe to the “elegance in simplicity” credo and prioritize artistic impression over empirical evidence for the simple, altruistic reason that my belief system has never been influenced by my photos...
Access through the front gate necessitated a walk to the front of the fence from where I parked along the side street ...the silhouetted tombstones clearly visible contrasted against the snow contributed to the shadows darting between the skeletal, gnarled old trees that groaned with protestation at the wind that assailed us from both sides of the fence... a path beyond the gate bifurcates the rectangular patch of original Illinois prairie growth at the front of he property into smaller square sections that is just tall enough to create an ominous corridor into the cemetery...the penetrating cold fogged the LCD and was straining the auto focus mechanism in the lens already... the low battery icon flashed in resignation after only yielding a picture count in the single digits this early into the shoot but I have learned that keeping the depleted batteries in my pants pocket after replacement, the warmth will rejuvenates them enough to squeeze out a few more shots when the secondaries are discharged ...there has always been an overwhelming sense of a presence there in the past and tonight was no different although this it seemed to emanate from the tree tops overhead this time, once strong enough to take a shot of an elder Oak from the trunk base up...a cursory perusal of the display revealed nothing but I shall endeavor to at least extract a tree bark face from the full blown version to appease my detractors that like to offset there own lack of content or subject matter of interest by castigating the more subjective of my efforts (I still love the attention either way) ...I think the last time there was in midsummer and as I recall I sat on one of the decorative benches awaiting sunset only to by attacked by a swarm of winged, vampiric creatures when the sun finally descended beyond the tree line (forgot the mosquito repellent) but the memory of the fleeting shadowy figures darting in and out of my periphery in conjunction with the associative feeling of foreboding that accompanied them served to validate the similar sensations and visions experienced on this current visit ...only this time instead of hearing a soft whispering, I smelled cigar smoke and roses ...
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http://files.usgwarchives.org/il/dupage/cemeteries/stjohncem.txt Here are the unedited (compressed) photos of my recent trip to St John ....12/09 (86 total)
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