[KubeSix]

How would it relate to royalty? And most important: What are your sources, Banshee? I've never heard of royalty in the family affecting any such thing, so I'd like to know where all this is coming from.

[LeXtruX]

I don't feel myself being above others.
Oh: something I forgot: I have this feeling I'm meant for greater deeds... not like in hoping so, but really feeling I need to get prepared because something big is nearing and I'll have my part in it's process, though I don't know what is going to happen I do know with the very essence I am that I need to learn to control my powers and to get prepared.
Anyone knows this feeling? Or knows of things like this that happened in the past?

How attatched are you to all these wierd feelings sensations and images?

I mean honestly speaking do you think they make you different from other people or special somehow? Whats the crack with them?

Would you be willing to totally let them go if you had the chance?

[LeXtruX]

How attatched are you to all these wierd feelings sensations and images?

I mean honestly speaking do you think they make you different from other people or special somehow? Whats the crack with them?

Would you be willing to totally let them go if you had the chance?

you get it all wrong xD I don't mean I'm different than other, I'm just saying I have this feeling in every fiber in my body that I'm going to be part of something big and that I need to get prepared to help those around me, I'm not saying that feeling is actual truth, I'm just saying it's there. And I asked a question if others here know that feeling ^^ So basicly you answered my question by putting it into your question
But about that last question, could you clearify that for me please?

[KubeSix]

I think he meant to let go of other people.

I must say that I get that same feeling. Before I even got into the occult, I always felt like I was supposed to be part of something big.

The last question is another way of stating my first question. How attatched are you to them?

What does having them let you avoid feeling?

I'm not dismissing the experience you have at all. Its just that sometimes by asking questions like this we get to see whats happening from totally new perspectives. When that happens all sorts of new options become available.

[LeXtruX]

I have no idea how I would feel without them, but these feelings make me be aware of my surroundings and events at all times. I know something is coming, but I don't know when.
It doesn't make me avoiding any other feelings, it's just a sort of awareness

Your answer says to me you are so attached to them them at an ego level that you are using them to prop up aspects of your identity.

It says to me you are investing in having these sensations.

If i was wrong then you would be able to answer the question about what having them allows you to avoid feeling.

What do you think?

[LeXtruX]

Before I answer your question: It's indeed a feeling, I don't know what will happen, I don't know what role I'll have in that happening, I don't know who or what will be involved. I just feel something coming, wether it's good or bad, I don't know.
It makes me feel I need to get prepared by learning to control my 'abilities' is ever I have them. Just to be safe.
I don't invest on these sensations, to be honest, I'dd rather not have them, yet I do.
I misread your question the previous time.
I am attached to them as like an animal knows when a storm is coming, or when a vulcano will errupt or even when they know it's the time of the year for mating.
It's build in. I hate having them, I've been able to know bad (and luckily good things too) things were going to happen.

For example: Every relationship I had until now that I did not end. I always knew the exact day: she's going to call and dump me.
I was always correct. At first I never tried to prevent those things from happening, because I didn't know what the feeling was.
Later I tried to prevent those things from happening, and now I'm just trying to be myself when I get them, knowing that it's either no use or either a sign that it's happening because I'm losing myself in the process.

Another example: to prove it isn't just unconsious insight.
My neighbours wife was very sick, the doctors said she had another 6 monts
1 month after that diagnosis, and I never saw/heard anything about her, I suddenly said, she's going to be dead tonight. That night she died in her sleep.
I knew it when my best friend was about to die. I was right...

About good things:
I had this friend that was very unhappy. I told him, soon you'll find someone else and you'll be able to forget her.
I did not say this to comfort him, I actually knew he was going to meet a girl that week with whom he would fall madly in love with. I just felt it, it's hard to explain, but I just knew it was going to happen...

Other things are:
With those I'm closest too (emotionally) even if they are at the other side of the planet, I always know if somethings wrong, or if they are feeling extreme joy.

What I'm trying to say is that I have this build in radar inside of me to detect when major changes in my life or in the lives of those near me are going to occur.
And franctly, I hate having them, because mostly they are vague feelings that are getting clear when it's too late to do anything about it...
I hate having them, but I feel that if I can learn to control my energy usages and abilities I can use it for the better.

Now, I'm not a seer or something like that...
I can feel vibes, tensions in the air, I can sense emotions and intensions (sry I use this for the lack of a better word)
When I look at someone and I get a bad feeling about him: it's always correct... they alway end up being bastards or bad people (like rapists) and if I get a good feeling it's always correct, though this happens the least...
mostly I don't get any feelings, meaning, they are ok, but can be annoying.
If I get a good feeling it usually means they are the nicest, kindest people there are xD

Now, by coming here I got to learn a lot about psi vamps... and mainly, my parents do complain a lot that I suck the energy out of them when I'm near them and just talking to them.
+ The fact I can sense emotions also conforms the fact that Moloch thinks I'm a psi vamp.

I hope this info helped you a lot?
If you got questions, ask them:)

The world is tainted by the filters you see it through.

What are the filters you are using?

[LeXtruX]

I haven't really answered your previous question xD
Those feelings always dissapear when I know what they are for. This one has been going on for many years and it lessens a bit in feeling when I get the idea in my head I'm part of something bigger...
It could be hoping to be part of something bigger, it could always be just my imagination. But I feel it
About the filters... I have 0 experience in controlling my energy, feelings and abilities... So I have no idea what filter I use.
I don't see a tainted world though, every day I go outside and see how beautiful it is, even with us humans destroying it bit by bit, it is still a wondrous place to live ^^
I love looking at nature, the birds, the sky, I love walking around and see people smiling, chatting. I love being here, but still that feeling remains:(
Maybe it has something to do that I want to protect this piece of rock no matter what?

I came here mainly to get a 2nd, 3rd, etc opinion about what I experience ^^ Since in my family these topics aren't really wanted, they are being avoided because they are 'impossible'...

[Ryobi]

Have you looked into the indigo child phenomena? I personally don't know wether to believe it or not however what I read indicates that these people have been reincarnated into this world in order to cut down the 'negative energies' the world has accumulated (oppression, corruption etc) in order to make it a better place.

They are said to have indigo coloured auras and a sign of being one of these people is that you have a unsurpassable need to do great things in the world and to tear down the current systems and laws human society has put in place. They also seem to mention the feeling of being part of something necessary and much bigger than themselves.

[LeXtruX]

Have you looked into the indigo child phenomena? I personally don't know wether to believe it or not however what I read indicates that these people have been reincarnated into this world in order to cut down the 'negative energies' the world has accumulated (oppression, corruption etc) in order to make it a better place.

They are said to have indigo coloured auras and a sign of being one of these people is that you have a unsurpassable need to do great things in the world and to tear down the current systems and laws human society has put in place. They also seem to mention the feeling of being part of something necessary and much bigger than themselves.

Ok that's just creepy Oo I didn't know that Oo but I do always have the need to help others too Oo
you're scaring me xD Sadly enough, I can't see my aura

[Ryobi]

Have you looked into the indigo child phenomena? I personally don't know wether to believe it or not however what I read indicates that these people have been reincarnated into this world in order to cut down the 'negative energies' the world has accumulated (oppression, corruption etc) in order to make it a better place.

They are said to have indigo coloured auras and a sign of being one of these people is that you have a unsurpassable need to do great things in the world and to tear down the current systems and laws human society has put in place. They also seem to mention the feeling of being part of something necessary and much bigger than themselves.

Ok that's just creepy Oo I didn't know that Oo but I do always have the need to help others too Oo
you're scaring me xD Sadly enough, I can't see my aura

Try placing a mirror opposite a blank white wall, then practice looking at spot between your eyes for about 30 seconds before trying to focus just infront of your face, use your peripherals to try and spot a area around your head and going down to your shoulders that's a little lighter or clearer than the rest of the area around you. I've found that closing your eyes after staring at that spot for 30 seconds can show you the general outline and colours of your aura.

Another method you can use is:

1) Get a book and cover it in Blue or Red paper. Stand it upright on a table several feet from you. Experiment with the distance until you find what is best for you. Make sure you have a plain neutral background. If the wall colour is wrong, hang a sheet of neutral coloured paper or cloth as a backdrop.

2) Close your eyes, take a few deep breaths and relax. When you are calm, look at the book. Focus your eyes on nothing, a little to the side and past it. Gently hold and get used to that focus but don't strain your eyes or tense your eyes or forehead. Concentrate! you need a gentle, steady un-focus, similar to day-dreaming.

3) Once you have completed the first step, gather several books and cover them, each with a different coloured paper. Study these one at a time and write down the auric colour for it. Next try using two at a time, and watch how the auric colours affect each other.

4) Get a pot plant or some flowers and study it. The aura you will see emanates from the living plant and also from the colours of the petals. The Orange hue comes from the green of the stems and leaves. You will also see a more distinct etheric and a shimmering optical effect around them. This shimmering is the energy field or living aura of the plant.
 

While in the sun. Hold your arm out and study it against the sky or clouds. Alternatively, lie down and look at your legs. Make sure the skin is bare when you do this, and remember, grass will give off an Orange hue. the first thing you will see is the etheric aura, like pale smoke clinging to the skin. Next you will see the shimmering optical effect in the air extending from several inches to a couple of feet deep, depending on the strength of their aura. Keep trying and the aura's colour will build up, and out from, the etheric. It will first appear as a narrow band of colour next to the etheric. This will expand slowly, if you hold your focus, until it is several inches or more thick.

The reason you don't look directly at an aura is because your outer field of vision is much more sensitive than the focused area. Which is why many people see things out of the corner of their eye but when they focus it dissapears.

Good luck and definitely read up about the star seeds, in particular the Indigo generation. A lot of it is new age bull but the general idea is quite interesting, especially if you relate to it and can find good, well thought out sources.

[LeXtruX]

I'll try that now ^^
EDIT: I tried it and it's a blueish purple (violet) colour..., more blue than purple (violet) though. (so basicly I think it's indigo, but it could be a bit darker)