Just weird I know. >..<

[Sick_Angel13]

Awesome, if so will you tell me then? Raz is in no condition to repeat the conversation to me.

[Moloch]

Since Raz will not oblige us with a blow-by-blow of our conversation, and backed by popular request... Here is the conversation between Raz and I this morning on IM:

Raziel (7/16/2008 7:52:35 AM): yo, shadow
Raziel (7/16/2008 7:59:28 AM): poke
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:15:00 AM): What's up?
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:15:42 AM): nuthin much
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:15:54 AM): I got your PM.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:16:14 AM): was waitn to see if ty's gonna trn up
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:16:28 AM): I thought you said he was online?
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:16:29 AM): chattin with a "Pagan"
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:16:43 AM): he was on monsrous
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:17:22 AM): Ah, well, that means within the last fifteen minutes.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:20:19 AM): so sup?
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:20:36 AM): Nada, catching up on the RPG that Nightshade is in.
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:20:45 AM): Seeing if there's a way I can rejoin the group.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:20:53 AM): ..... its not going anywhere
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:21:30 AM): I see, well, perhaps if I can find a way to slither back in, I can breathe life into it again.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:21:49 AM): you? bring life? thats a laugh
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:21:56 AM):
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:22:00 AM):
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:22:47 AM): I never said it would be pleasant life. IT'd be more like zombie life.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:23:02 AM): ewwww
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:24:18 AM): Just imagine, rotting, puss-filled, zombie sex.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:39:12 AM): >>...................after several minutes, it still won
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:39:19 AM): leave me alone
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:39:31 AM): I hate you more that you could ever know
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:39:33 AM): LMFAO!!!
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:39:41 AM): You're welcome.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:41:10 AM): I doubt you're really laughing like that
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:41:40 AM): No, not that loudly, Rose is five feet away and sound aslepp, but if she were awake I certainly would be.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:42:49 AM): Ok. i challenge you to give me the worst mental image you can think of.
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:43:10 AM): Me: Naked.
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:43:23 AM): 6' 3" tall, and 350#
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:43:26 AM): seen worse
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:43:36 AM): .............
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:43:41 AM): Bent over, with a www.goatse.com pose going on.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:43:53 AM): NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:00 AM): Stop it!
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:44:02 AM): AND fresh j*zz leaking from my overly f****d asshole.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:10 AM): DEAR GAWD!
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:44:20 AM): With a bit of blood for color.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:21 AM): FAKR J0000!!!!!!!!
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:33 AM): LalaALLAlAlAL IM NOT LISTENTING!
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:44:35 AM): And flecks of sh*t here and there.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:40 AM): KLkldn
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:41 AM): 'fa
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:41 AM): dfa
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:41 AM): s'g
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:42 AM): fa
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:45 AM): faasfasfdafaffaefeafa
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:48 AM): asfafafafaefa
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:48 AM): fg
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:49 AM): gfs
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:44:49 AM): fas
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:44:51 AM): I win.
Raziel (7/16/2008 8:45:01 AM): I have lost horribly
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:45:08 AM): Yes. Yes, you have.
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:45:34 AM): You will never have an erection again without thinking of this moment.
Shadow (7/16/2008 8:45:50 AM): Assuming you ever have another one that is.

I did a little mild editing for the profanity, but that's all of it up to the point where it changes over to something else.

[Sick_Angel13]

Finally someone who can freak Raz out!  Poor Razzy...

[Moloch]

Poor Raz?! What about Rose? She has to live with me you know, lol?

[Petling]

Are you really into that stuff, Moloch? 0,o

[Sick_Angel13]

Well that was her choice, and thinking about it it's a bit of Raz's fault for challenging you though. lol

But I didn't find it disturbing, I have my weak points like everyone else does but it's other stuff that creeps me out, and I doubt anyone will find out what it is!

[Moloch]

Petling - I am a connoisseur of things disturbing, demented, psychotic, and distasteful; just to name a few categories. If I hear someone shout "Eeewwww, GROSS!" I immediately have to see what it is. I've seen some things tht I won't talk about here because it's that bad. Even worse than www.goatse.com. We're talking stuff that'd put Raz into an institution for life, and I go into that stuff every day. I've watched videos of executions, including impalements, people being cut in half, shark attacks caught on live camera feeds, etc. I never tire of it.

I can't tire of it either. I'm an author, and what I write about is in itself disturbing, and I immerse myself in the Darkness for inspiration and as a lifestyle, so yeah, I'm mentally F****D; but Rose loves me anyway, so I'm alright I guess.

[Petling]

... ... ... So? You aint seen horror till you're an eight year old watchin your Dad beat your Mom until she's unconscious.

[Moloch]

How d oyou know I *haven't* grown up watching it? Or, better yet; how do you know I wasn't the one being beaten? Beware the pity trips you toss my direction Petling, you'll only bring grief to yourself. I promise you I can tell you horror stories about my youth, hell, my *adulthood* that'd make you cry.

Do you think I, or anyone else, wanted me to turn out the way I did? How many, and what kind, of horrors must a child endure before they turn out to be a psychotic, sadistic, completely remorseless person? Do you know what holds me back from turning the people I hate into my own Objets d'art? The knowledge that I would almost certainly go to prison. I feel no guilt for feeling and thinking the way that I do. I am a monster; plain and simple, a human monster.

Good day, Petling. Next time you think to make such a statement, do yourself, and all of us a favor, and think twice more before you click the 'Post' button.

[Sick_Angel13]

Petling be careful when directing statements like that to people you don't know, you don't know nothing at all of who they are or about their life. This includes to all the newcomers of monstrous.

[Petling]

Wait, you completely misunderstood me. All I was sayin was what you had posted previously to my post wasn't that scary to me. I never meant to make it personal, nor was I tryin to gain pity. I apologise for any misunderstanding.

[Moloch]

I'll accept your apology... if you'll accept mine.

I jumped the gun because personal experience on my part has been that a comment like that comes from people who may or may not have had it difficult, and usually assumes that everyone else has had it easier than they have.

[Sick_Angel13]

Oh I get it now, don't worry about it, you just wasn't specific. Some of it may not scare you, sure but there are harsh and unimaginable things I myself wouldn't share with strangers - not on a public board anyways.

We may have misunderstood you but that's alright. Forgive us, but stick to our advice, anyways.

[Petling]

No need for apologies, but I'll accept them if that's what you want. n_n Moloch was right though, I DO need to think my stuff over before I post it. So what was the topic of this thread? Cuz I got lost.

[Sick_Angel13]

The thread was currently regarding to a weird fetish but by now it has seemed to have flown off the tracks. Unless if there is something to add in this discussion I feel what we should do is go